I am such a grouch tonight. I cannot turn my frown upside down. I cooked dinner and it was okay. I've tried this dish before twice in my life (chicken parmisian) & both times i couldn't get that dang chicken done (in a skillet)! These pieces were huge & the cookbook will say it'll take 5 minutes on each side, but it really takes like 20. AND IS STILL PINK!
Finally they were done. Okay, MINE was done. I told Brad if it's not done to just put it in the oven & not even tell me about it. He had to put it back in the oven, but he forgot about the not telling me about it. ;) He said it was delicious. Just needed a little more cooking time. Mine was good, though. I served it with pasta & that mixed up with the tomatoes & such - mmmmm. I'll blog the recipe later. =)
For those married women out there, i have a question. Are you ever just fine & dandy & then one day you take notice of the messy unorganized house & suddenly are in the worst mood EVER? That is why i'm so grumpy tonight. And it seems to happen to me every once in awhile. I don't mean my house gets messy & disorganized every once in awhile; just that the realization will hit me hugely sometimes more than other times & i get extremely grumpy - and, sort of depressed. Like it feels too overwhelming or something. It feels like I'll never be able to have a clean beautiful ORGANIZED house.
I guess the reason i said married women & didn't include everyone is because I feel like this has only been a problem since i got married. I went thru a lot of roomies in my twenties & most of them were pretty neat, or organized. Even the ones that weren't, they tried to keep the mess in their bedroom. But in this house i am having the HARDEST time. And it's not just that i am a OCD neat freak who wants everything spotless. I'm not - i like it lived in. BUT i do love organization & i do LOVE a nice clean home. And it actually makes me feel like crap when it can't be that way. I just do not like to LIVE in that environment.
But right now we have two problems. One is that we do not have enough SPACE. & the other is that we have too much STUFF.
And it's making me crazy. I am going to lose my little mind.
I want to get rid of SO MUCH STUFF that we do not use or need. But hubby would freak out just a bit! I want to stay on top of the cleaning & get this place organized. But how - when you can't get rid of the junk? What are you supposed to do when there is no space?
Normally i'd get rid of it - TODAY - but hubby likes to keep it STUFF. I also would love those UGLY cords to the TV & dvd player & speakers to be hidden! And i'd love wood floors (this is not going to happen so i should just get used to the green carpet).
Thing is, i could be fine w/ the ugly carpet if everything else could go where it belongs & stay there!
Sometimes something is said that triggers it or sometimes i just, after having lived for awhile in blinders, suddenly NOTICE the horrible living room & want to CRY.
And right now, it seems really overwhelming. Like WHEN can i do this?
And i like to clean. I used to be a maid! HAHA. And people have known me before for my organization abilities. But it's not working here.
If i could just have a clean organized living room & kitchen, that'd be good enough for me! (The bathrooms & bedrooms are organized & pretty much stay that way. I just want the living areas to be organized.)
I don't think this will be as much of a problem when we finally get a house, because houses have attics. =) So wonderful thing is, when we have a house, a lot of boxes will go STRAIGHT to the attic.
But it could be years before we have a house.
Ok. Vent Over. Gonna watch some American Idol. Maybe then i'll forget about this & go back to lala land. =)