Thank you all for your sweet comments on "Discouraged". They really helped! Thanks for listening to me vent for a minute! Sometimes life can be tough, ya know!?
Well, i think things may be getting better. My Blazer is fixed! I did not know that while we were at work yesterday, Brad's dad was getting it fixed for me! I swear - i have the BEST in-laws! So we got to run by there after work to pick it up! And the financial damage is not near as bad as i was expecting. Thankfully we didn't have to replace the rims - just the tires. Much better! WHEW! So that means only one day of carpooling this week - when i thought it would take all week... Yipee!
Not that i mind riding to work with Brad...it just is a hassle & i have to get up earlier - which i don't like! ;)
I do still have a hanging sideview mirror...it's real cute, let me tell ya! I should take a pic of it!
Yesterday was my first evening home during the week in ages it seems & it was wonderful. I cooked up some shrimp stir-fry for dinner, got in bed with a book & then went to sleep early! I needed that!
Since i have my car back, i can go to the gym this afternoon. So funny that yesterday i really wanted to go (no vehicle) & today i do NOT want to go (vehicle)! But i always feel better when i go & i really do want to lose the weight. So i don't have a choice, do i?
Sometimes i really get down about the weight thing, but other times i'm all positive about it. It's just been a long struggle & it doesn't seem fair. I know thin people hate hearing fat people complain about their weight & then do nothing to fix it - but try not to judge me here, because i can assure you - i have done something about this - for YEARS. And it's not WORKING. I know it can work. I believe it WILL work. And i AM doing something about it. But it's just taking an awful long time. And it sucks.
This is what i have to keep telling myself:
So what if it took me a year to lose 20 pounds? It took me 6 months to GAIN 20 before i changed my lifestyle. This is true. In the first 6 months of marriage, i gained 20 pounds. Without even trying. That was from January to June 2009. In June 2009, i changed my lifestyle (& also started my weightloss blog). By June 2010, i'd lost 20 pounds. So what i have to remember is - if i had NOT changed my lifestyle - then i would be 40 pounds heavier!! & that is a SCARY-sounding weight, let me tell ya! I'd rather lose slowly than not at all. But i am going to have to work a bit harder. Or talk to someone to figure out what the deal is. Or SOMETHING. Something has got to give!
Anyway, i love & appreciate all of your comments. I'm going to make wiser choices this week with food (I didn't focus on it as much last week) & i'm going to keep it up at the gym. I'll also try new classes & stuff at the gym since i'm done with The Sound of Music now! :) YES!