I had a miserable day at work today. I really wish i could go into all the gory details, but i will not. I know you shouldn't blog about work & also, i don't want to bore you with the details. But seriously! I am overwhelmed. I am tired. I am sick of going in ready to get all my work done & having 594040 things ruin that. I am tired of being given work to do because the person who is supposed to do it, won't do it. THAT is my biggest complaint.
Tonight this has me so depressed that i want to cry. I do NOT want to go back to work tomorrow. I am DREADING it. It has been awhile since i have dreaded it. Most days i like it okay. SURE i'd rather be home. I don't think i'm MEANT to sit in an office. Sure, there are DAILY annoyances. However... today had me really ticked & holding for dear life onto my sanity!
In case you are going *tsk tsk* at me, please know that i tell my boss almost everything that goes through my brain regarding work & this blog post would not freak her out. Or make her mad. Really.
On days like this, i begin to hate other aspects of my life & wish for too many things that are not in God's timing right now.
Also, today i found out another friend is getting divorced. This makes the third couple in a very short time period. I am heartbroken for them. I always knew i'd go through a season of watching all my friends go off to college, and then all my friends get married, & then all my friends start having kids... but i never guessed that i'd start seeing friends get divorced. After all, they married awesome guys too. They saved themselves for marriage too. They prayed & made sure they were marrying the right person, too. Never would i have guessed that one day any of them would face divorce.It makes me so sad!
I do not judge any of them, for i do not know the circumstances. I think of what could have happened & there is no telling what i would do. No telling what you would do, either, if your husband cheated or if he got addicted to drugs or alcohol or if he became abusive (not that this is what happened in these cases...I have no idea.). I pray that in any case, we would try to work it out, but yeah...who knows?
I just cannot imagine something more painful than divorce. Obviously death would be unimaginable. But even if your husband was an absolute jerkface.. you still loved them at one time. You still are probably reeling with shock that it is over. You still feel rejected, even if it wasn't your fault.
I am just praying & praying for these friends. And their children.
Please pray for these three women that i know as they go thru this difficult time! Pray that God heals their hearts!! Please!
P.S. Please do not comment that (a) i should be thankful i have a job or (b) that divorce is of the devil. I AM thankful for my job. I just have bad days. & i know God does not like divorce. I don't either. But it happens. & it's no picnic.
Sorry for the downer post! Hopefully i'll be cheerier tomorrow!
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