Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Trust issues?

I got some great comments on my recent post, A Conflicted Heart. I really appreciate each of you that encouraged me & let me know you have been there. I was starting to feel really alone. It's hard to admit that you are struggling with trusting God. And honestly, I didn't even think of it like that until Susan mentioned it in the comments. Part of her comment was, "For me, it's a daily battle of giving my life back over to the Lord and learning how to trust... oh to trust! I used to think it was so easy but the older i get the more the reality of what it means to actually trust hits me and i'm faced with my own insecurities and lack of faith."

TRUST. That's it, isn't it? That's the problem. I am not fully trusting my Savior.

TRUST (according to webster) means (a) an assured reliance on the character, ability, strength or truth of someone or something, (b) one in which confidence is placed, & (c) dependence on something future or contingent: HOPE.

I love this. Especially the first definition. I must trust God. And how can i not, based on the definitions of the word itself? Is there anyone more trustworthy?



I was thinking about this the other day... about that post & about how I was having "trust issues" with God. That exact phrase popped into my head. And I realized something. You know how sometimes people have what they call "trust issues" because they've been hurt before? They've been in too many relationships with too many jerks who broke their trust? And for awhile they walk around with a chip on their shoulder & allow future guys to pay for the past guys' mistakes - just because of past hurts? Until, of course, God begins the healing process & they are restored. :) 

Or they've been beaten or abused by a father figure & then they have issues trusting any other man who comes into their life? It's understandable. It makes sense. 

I've never really been that girl. I definitely walked through some heartache growing up, but it never had to do with some jerk of a guy. My only relationship was with Brad who I married 11 years after our breakup. But even when our first relationship didn't work out, there still wasn't anything he did to truly break my trust. Yes, he said some things to hurt me (& vice versa), but he never just really crushed me as I know guys did to friends of mine. I had great friends in my life, guys & girls, & definitely saw that there are good people in this world. Trustworthy people. So I didn't really have "trust issues" when it came to anyone, really. There were individuals who hurt me & of course I didn't want to trust THAT person again (not a bad idea!), but as far as a general, "i don't trust men" or "i don't trust women"... it just wasn't something i dealt with. For every mean girl, I had at least 5 awesome girlfriends. And for every jerk guy I knew, I knew at least 5 good guys.

And so... how in the world could I have trust issues with GOD?! He has NEVER let me down! He is the ONLY ONE who won't let you down! Because other people are human. But God is nothing but Good. He is LOVE. And that is all that is in his very nature. If I don't have trust issues with humans (for the most part!), then how in the world could I have them with God? The one who is truly trustworthy!

That first definition is the best. Trust = an assured reliance on the character, ability, strength or truth of someone or something. And this is what I must have. And assured reliance on my God. His character. His ability. His strength. His truth. Not to mention all those other amazing things about Him! He isn't gonna let me down!

I'm not saying life will be nothing but roses. We've all been through horrible things, things where we didn't know if we'd make it. And yet, we all testify how God came through for us! How he turned our hardships into testimonies! How he turned our sadness into Joy! He's done it in my life time & time again. He's proved faithful over & over again. So maybe His timing is different than mine, but if that's the case, guess whose timing is off? MINE. {SIGH}

This post may make it sound like I've figured it out, I've got it all together & now i am fully trusting God. Well, i AM trusting God now. I think it would be hard not to after realizing how stupid I've been to not trust Him in the first place. But no, i don't have it all together. There will be times, today even, that i start thinking about my worries again. But as soon as I do, I will have to remember to PRAY & to ask God, the faithful one, to meet my needs in his time.

{TRUSTING GOD}

"Sovereign Lord, you are God! Your covenant is trustworthy, and you have promised good things to your servant." 2 Samuel 7:27-29

"Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you."
Psalm 9:10

"To you they cried out & were saved; in you they trusted & were not put to shame." Psalm 22:5

"When I am afraid, I put my trust in you." Psalm 56:3 (I love this. Something I will have to keep doing...putting my trust in God.)

"Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." Psalm 62:8

I don't think I've ever done a search on the word Trust. I am loving these verses. There are a TON more, but I thought I'd only post a few for now. I hope they helped you like they're helping me.

{GROUP HUG!}

3 comments:

  1. Lovely post, currently I have been struggling with the same thing and really cutting myself off.

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  2. Love this Mel! And I love you!

    Your honesty is awesome. :) Trusting God is hard. It's just hard. And you don't really know how much your trust Him until you HAVE to. I don't like that. I like to think that I trust well... but my boat is being rocked a bit lately and I'm finding I'm not as solid in my trust as I had thought I was. But it's like a tree... when the wind shakes it it's roots dig deeper.

    Dig deeper!

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  3. such a great post with so much truth... it really is a common struggle but the more aware of it we become, the more we can work towards resolving it! :)

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