Wednesday, November 14, 2012

4 years.

I feel incredibly lucky & blessed & thankful & happy to have the husband I have.

I love him so much. 

We weren't supposed to be together. For those of you who haven't read our story, here's the quick version: our parents met when we were babies, we fell in love when i was 18, we dated for over a year, he broke up with me, and we never saw each other again.

Or so I thought. But he got back in touch with me. I was 29, pretty sure that God had a husband for EVERYONE but me. Pretty certain I would die an old maid! When out of nowhere, i get a call from Brad. After 11 years, y'all! Crazy. 

As it turned out, he was still the one. After all those years. He was still the one God had for me.  I remember being so heartbroken after our breakup. People thought I was just like any other girl who had her first heartbreak, but what they didn't know was...he really WAS the right one for me! It just was the wrong timing. It makes sense now that it took me SO LONG to get over him. Because our love was real. And it was hard to let go of that. 

For the first few years after we broke up, i still thought he was the one. I thought it was the wrong timing but that God would bring us back together when it was right. But then i turned 24. Then, 25. And i realized i was terribly mistaken. Someone else was out there for me. But it definitely was not Brad Venable! 

Except i was wrong. And i am so glad! Haha!  

We love our life together. By love i mean we are OVERJOYED by it. We are happy, very happy. He is sweet, he is kind, he is always putting me first. He serves me coffee every morning & every evening. Sometimes twice! He goes for walks with me. He goes on dates with me, even if he'd rather be home. He is constantly taking care of my car. And that is no easy task, believe me! He calls me beautiful, or his "sweet girl". Or a silly made up name just to make me laugh. Speaking of laughing...he is CONSTANTLY cracking me up. He is HILARIOUS, y'all. Sometimes I'm sad he doesn't act like that everywhere so everyone else could be entertained by him as I am. But he's a bit more reserved in public. He doesn't like to be the center of attention, at all! 

I'm not saying we never disagree. Of course we do. I drive him crazy by losing things, by leaving food or drink too close to the computer keyboard, by not sticking to the budget all the time. He makes me insane when he gets super chatty first thing in the morning, or when he leaves dishes lined up by the sink, or when he forgets to put a load of wash on when i REALLY needed those pants for the morning!

But you know what? That's just life, y'all! And that's okay.  Nobody is perfect, we all have our little idiosyncrasies & crazy issues & silly habits. There's nothing wrong with that! He does things that drive me crazy... and I do the same to him. And that's just a part of marriage, no matter who you marry! Honestly, i think it's better that way. More variety. Less boredom. ;) Makes life interesting!

There are so many areas of life that I can't seem to get right. i struggle DAILY with addiction to food, with fear, with failure. Infertility? It sucks. I worry too much, I doubt myself more. I always think everyone else has it all together. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever grow up.

But one thing I got right? The man i chose to marry. Although I guess I can't take credit for THAT... God is the one that brought him to me. I almost wrote him off, though. Mom said i was being too hasty & she was right. I am glad i stuck around to see what would happen. Because there is no one on this earth that is a better match for me. God sure knew what he was doing! Who else would put up with all my tears, all my anger, all my weirdness?! Who else would stand up for me, support me, love me like he does? I can't imagine anyone doing a better job of it. 

There is NO DOUBT in my mind that we will continue to be very happy together. I am not dillusional. I know there are bad days, bad weeks, sometimes entire bad YEARS in a marriage. I know we don't have kids yet, and that when we do it will change everything. I know there are bound to be times when I don't really want to be around him that much, or times when we don't see eye-to-eye on things. Truth is, we've had some of those times already. We've definitely had our share of difficult situations to get through. But we are still madly in love. And I don't see that ever changing.

 I love him. Completely & totally. I love us, together. We're best friends. We're a team. We are each other's #1 - and we treat each other as such. I really can't wait to see what the next year holds for us! 

{Happy Anniversary, Baby. I love you.}

P.S.  As you are reading this, we're off work, spending the day together, having breakfast together, going to the zoo, and who knows what else! So excited to be able to take an entire day just to ourselves to celebrate each other & 4 years together.

1 comment:

  1. Soo sweet! Brought tears to my eyes. Such a beautiful and honest post! Happy anniversary!!!!


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