I don't understand what has happened to me. I really, really don't.
You see, back in the day I decided i HAD to lose weight. This was back in 2009. I realized I had gained 20 pounds in 6 months, and that if i kept going like this i would be well over 300 in no time. So i stopped the road i was on & began to eat healthy.
Because of this revelation, I began to do whatever it took to get healthy. I started doing cardio. I started eating right. I was counting calories. I was SERIOUSLY limiting junk food. I cut out coke & fast food. I did not lose weight.
People said i should go to the doctor. People said something wasn't right.
I said, "No...surely i am not doing all i can do. Maybe i should give up sugar or start weight training or something."
So I began an intense health routine of counting every calorie & staying under a certain number of them, along with two days a week of zumba & three days a week of bootcamp.
In 15 weeks, I gained 1 pound.
At this point, i went to the doctor who told me i was fine. But i later went to my obgyn because this is when i also realized i was having abnormally long cycles (before that i was on the pill). She diagnosed me with Insulin Resistance.
I don't know how or why or what is wrong with me, but you would think at that point i would have started getting my act together. Since i actually HAD a reason the weight wasn't coming off, and had now been given tools to help me succeed. I had figured out that calorie-counting doesn't work for those who are insulin resistant. I had done my research, and met with a nutritionist, and realized that it was more about sugar & bad carbs.
I did well for awhile. In total, i have lost about 30 pounds. IN THREE YEARS. Part of the slowness is the beginning, when i had undiagnosed Insulin Resistance. But the other reason for the slow weightloss is because i kept turning back to EVIL WAYS! Over & over again. And i don't mean just an occasional treat. I mean, completely turning my back on healthy eating. Going straight back to too many cokes in a day, too much fast food in a week, and ZERO exercise. It was awful.
Since then, i have continued to struggle. I will do really really well for a week and then go straight back to HORRIBLE EATING.
As most of you know, we have been dealing with infertility for awhile now. And last week, I found out that not only am i Insulin Resistance, but i also have PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. (I recently discovered it's actually "ovary syndrome", not ovarian, but i think it sounds better as ovarian. No?)
Everything I have read says diet/exercise/weightloss will help with Insulin Resistance. I am seeing the same thing for PCOS.
Every single diet program i hear of - paleo, plexus slim, calorie-counting, ideal protein, clean eating - they all have testimonies from people who reversed IR, reversed PCOS, or finally got pregnant after years of trying all because of WEIGHTLOSS.
I have to do this.
This week i was horrible. HORRIBLE. I work at a hospital. My department is next door to the cafe (which is basically starbucks), a short walk to the cafeteria, and a shorter walk to the gift shop. This week i had a pumpkin spice latte DAILY. That wasn't the only junk i had either, believe me.
At home, we have TONS of produce and other healthy foods. I've also gotten good at bringing my lunch to work. But i have to keep that up & NO MORE TRIPS TO THE GIFT SHOP OR CAFE!!!
So it begins, again. I have decided to do the WHOLE 30. I want to do this because i believe in it, more than i believe in calorie counting or any other program. I believe in eating clean. I do. I have tossed around the idea of going paleo for awhile now, but i simply MUST get my hubby on board. And that might take some arm-twisting & whining & begging, ha! But the truth is, he needs it JUST AS BAD as i do. He does. He is not obese, he is barely even overweight, but he does have health concerns that I think would go away with some junk food elimination.
I also want to invest in some weights & do some walking & weight-training.
I don't know when DAY ONE will be, but it will be soon. I will keep you posted.
Wish me luck! :)
Side Note: I am thinking about getting rid of my weight loss blog & writing about that stuff here. But i don't want to annoy anyone or make any of my weightloss-blog-only readers sad or anything like that. And I'm really not sure what to do. If i do start writing about that stuff here, i won't be posting my exact weight or anything like that, probably. Which is okay with me because i post that in other places (such as apps on my phone). I would still probably tell you how much I lost or gained, just not how much i currently weigh. But i might, who knows! I also wouldn't overwhelm you with too many weight-related posts! Based on all of this information, please vote! :)
(Yes, Erika, this survey is a direct copy-cat off of you, but now you can have the fun of voting!!) :)