I feel pretty awesome.
Days 10 & 11 the hardest? Nah. ;) (Tomorrow is Day 11, so... knock on wood! Haha! Just kidding. I'm really pretty sure i am past the hardest part.)
How did i do today? Well...
Breakfast: egg (I am really getting sick of eggs. Gonna have to come up with something else or at least make a casserole or those egg muffin things!)
Lunch: Ground beef/onions/lettuce/salsa (YUM!)
Honeycrisp apples from Fresh Market are HUGE!!! Big as my face. And I prefer apple slices but I forgot a knife at home and had nothing to cut it with. I may have broken my jaw. ;)
Dinner: Salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, avocado, bacon & extra virgin olive oil)
Very very happy. Very ready to adopt this way of eating... forever!
Today i have a lot of strong emotions going on inside me. My heart feels VERY VERY FULL. For those of you who have gone through infertility, you know that sometimes our fertile friends can be AWESOME or they can be, well, less than sensitive to what we are going through. I have had some friends here at home become just... i don't know. They have loved me so deeply and it is so evident by their actions and words. They have such compassion on me without "feeling sorry" for me. They just really care. They care deeply. I feel absolutely overwhelmed, in a good way. In a way that i have never felt it before, at least not in many years. It is kind of awesome, but also kind of makes me want to just cry. A lot. (A happy cry? Or a thankful cry? Or maybe just a hormonal cry. I don't know.) ;)
A lot has been happening with the fertility stuff. I struggle with how much to say on the blog, but i will tell you that the 2 1/2 years of trying naturally are over, we are now moving into meds and doctor visits and lots of expenses and labwork and procedures. We are just at the very beginning, and i pray it won't be a long journey. But who knows?
Tonight my worship pastor asked me to lead worship in a few weeks at our church. He is going to be out of town. He mentioned that I should do Healer because i did that one last time i led worship and he thought it sounded good. Anyway, i got in the car and popped my Kari Jobe cd in the car and listened to Healer. The words... so powerful...
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You.
I trust in You.
I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all i need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossbile for You
You hold the world in your hands
Please please please pray for me. My emotions are so strong. I am happy, I am afraid, I am excited, I am at peace, I am worried, I am happy, I am afraid. I need peace. I need prayer. And i need babies.
Prayer request: I just tonight found this blog through another blogger. Has a long infertility journey, finally pregnant with twins but her water broke at 17 weeks. Please read her latest post and lift up her name in prayer!