I feel pretty awesome.
Days 10 & 11 the hardest? Nah. ;) (Tomorrow is Day 11, so... knock on wood! Haha! Just kidding. I'm really pretty sure i am past the hardest part.)
How did i do today? Well...
Breakfast: egg (I am really getting sick of eggs. Gonna have to come up with something else or at least make a casserole or those egg muffin things!)
Snack: pecans
Lunch: Ground beef/onions/lettuce/salsa (YUM!)
Snack: apple
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Honeycrisp apples from Fresh Market are HUGE!!! Big as my face. And I prefer apple slices but I forgot a knife at home and had nothing to cut it with. I may have broken my jaw. ;)
Dinner: Salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, avocado, bacon & extra virgin olive oil)
Snack: banana
YES! SUCCESS!
Very very happy. Very ready to adopt this way of eating... forever!
Today i have a lot of strong emotions going on inside me. My heart feels VERY VERY FULL. For those of you who have gone through infertility, you know that sometimes our fertile friends can be AWESOME or they can be, well, less than sensitive to what we are going through. I have had some friends here at home become just... i don't know. They have loved me so deeply and it is so evident by their actions and words. They have such compassion on me without "feeling sorry" for me. They just really care. They care deeply. I feel absolutely overwhelmed, in a good way. In a way that i have never felt it before, at least not in many years. It is kind of awesome, but also kind of makes me want to just cry. A lot. (A happy cry? Or a thankful cry? Or maybe just a hormonal cry. I don't know.) ;)
A lot has been happening with the fertility stuff. I struggle with how much to say on the blog, but i will tell you that the 2 1/2 years of trying naturally are over, we are now moving into meds and doctor visits and lots of expenses and labwork and procedures. We are just at the very beginning, and i pray it won't be a long journey. But who knows?
Tonight my worship pastor asked me to lead worship in a few weeks at our church. He is going to be out of town. He mentioned that I should do Healer because i did that one last time i led worship and he thought it sounded good. Anyway, i got in the car and popped my Kari Jobe cd in the car and listened to Healer. The words... so powerful...
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You.
I trust in You.
I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all i need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossbile for You
You hold the world in your hands
Please please please pray for me. My emotions are so strong. I am happy, I am afraid, I am excited, I am at peace, I am worried, I am happy, I am afraid. I need peace. I need prayer. And i need babies.
Prayer request: I just tonight found this blog through another blogger. Has a long infertility journey, finally pregnant with twins but her water broke at 17 weeks. Please read her latest post and lift up her name in prayer!
Mel - We tried for 10 years to get pregnant naturally and nothing. Last year we went and did the testing - there were some challenges with both our bodies. We didn't want to do Clomid for months and wait and see, so we decided to go the route of IUI (intrauterine insemination) I had to do shots in the stomach for a couple of weeks, and despite the fact that the doctor said we probably only had a 10% chance of pregnancy overall, we got pregnant on the first try and now have our beautiful Charlotte!
ReplyDeleteHow exciting that you're taking the next step! Continue to be patient, it may be a marathon, but you'll cross the finish line eventually!
ReplyDeleteFirst, 10 days!!! Woohoo!!
ReplyDeleteAnd second, you have my prayers!!! Thinking of you!
Wonderful job with the diet!
ReplyDeleteHoping this next step is going to be the one for you and Brad!
Great job on reaching Day 10! You're doing excellent!
ReplyDeleteYou're always in my prayers. I really pray that this new thing is what works for you.
I love that song! I would love to be there when you lead worship, I bet it is awesome!! Excited for your starting IF treatments...hope we see a quick payoff!! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm excited and hopeful for you guys- that hopefully with only a little help to jump start the ol' ovaries you guys will be parents in no time! Regardless- you have so much fabulous, caring, and INCREDIBLE company in this journey- so I have faith that you'll be strong and come out of this a better person!
ReplyDeleteGreat job on the clean eating! I love that picture of you! I would be tired of eating eggs for breakfast too. :)
ReplyDeleteI will continue to pray for you!
girl I'm over eggs too - the only way I can really eat them without gagging is an omelet full of stuff. I made those egg muffins and I have to power through to eat them. maybe I did them wrong or didn't put the right stuff in them, but ugh nasty.
ReplyDeleteso proud of you!
and yay! so exciting to be asked to lead worship!
I loved this post! Your food stuff made me hungry, your apple picture made me laugh, and your infertility update made me so grateful you have found people who can embrace you where you are at and encourage you through the journey. God is so good, and faithful, even in those small things that seem so insignificant! LOVE LOVE LOVE Kari Jobe. I just got to see her in concert recently and she was AMAZING. Healer is one of my fave songs. Also, have you heard Oceans by Hillsong United? It's my new fave. Kari did a cover of it during the concert and I wanted to just fall to the floor in tears. SO GOOD.
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